but if by chance anyone does, that’s cool too.

bec, the drink in my hand has little pieces of fruit in it. reminds me of the drinks we used to make. we should do that again soon, i could use it. 

anyway, back to watching breaking bad.

over the state laws regarding trials and deciding how much bond a prisoner would have to pay. Just from checking the Booking Log daily in my city, I have made the connection that the amount of bond owed by the prisoner is determined by the individual severity of the crime(s) carried out, and of course by the general rules of laws in general, misdemeanor offenders will have lower bond than felons. Okay, cheaper bond for less severe crimes makes sense. Very obviously, this is common sense. Everyone knows a murderer or rapist will be receiving extremely expensive amounts for their bond. Comparatively, someone who got a DUI is clearly going to receive less serious consequences than a murderer. 

BUT! Should this be so clear? Someone who got a DUI was driving some sort of heavy motorized vehicle, in which one slip of the steering wheel or accidentally pressing the wrong pedal can result in murder. Shouldn’t consequences for crimes that put other, innocent people in direct peril be a bit more severe? No, I don’t think petty offenders should all be treated like insane necrophiliac serial killers, but if an action an individual consciously decides to carry out puts other people in harms way, their consequences should be more severe than they are currently in order to try and prevent any fatalities. THIS is obvious.

FINALLY. THIS IS THE PART THAT PUSHED ME OVER THE EDGE OF ANGER AND FRUSTRATION: Exhibit A - http://www.montgomerycountytn.org/County/sheriff/inquiry/picture.aspx?val=yJmIvQv7lqdDm5BnPaerKie4vrVG/d23h0NqKZcgcR9Meu/Zsm1Lw7IHdBjUfa4qV7bANb37Nlt2/PvAHL3MXJbAT84R0AbM6ZFizi6wSF6F8CaLFpFVmaH2UU7PhAZ37E5k910OohBDYSVkVC+UFg==

Yes, soliciting a minor is a very serious crime and fifteen thousand dollar bond seems entirely reasonable and plausible. The part I’m having trouble comprehending the logic to is the fact that when this man was arrested, he was charged with soliciting of a minor and statutory rape. WHY IN THE FUCK IS HE NOT BEING CHARGED ANY KIND OF BOND ON A RAPE CHARGE? WHO IN THE HELL THINKS THIS IS EVEN SEMI-SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE? Soliciting a minor is an incredibly serious and heinous crime to commit, but comparatively, rape is MUCH more heinous, twisted, life-altering, and disgusting than ONLY soliciting a minor. So he solicited a child and then raped the child, but his charges only reflect any kind of monetary liability for the soliciting charge. If solicitation can bring in fifteen thousand in bond, i can easily see a rape charge holding as high of an amount as one hundred thousand dollars.

Lawmakers need to take more advice from women. I can confidently say I don’t know a single woman who would choose to be in a room with a convicted child rapist over a man who was convicted of soliciting of a minor. Sure, all women would probably agree that the man charged with soliciting is a disgusting, cruel human being; similarly, I’m sure all women (the ones that I know anyone) would agree that they’d choose to be stuck in a room with a solicitor over a rapist one hundred percent of the time because the rapist physically destroyed some other innocent human being, and no one would knowingly put themselves in a situation where they might even possibly run the slightest risk of being harmed.

WHY DON’T LAWS MAKE SENSE? WHY CAN’T RAPISTS BE LOCKED AWAY FOREVER, JUST LIKE MURDERS?! Murderers stay in prison for life sentences for physically ending someone’s life: forcing their heart to stop beating, and their lungs to cease taking in air. But rapists, these sick, twisted bastards leave their victim forever scarred by memories of the atrocities that they were forced to endure. These fucking bastard rapists may not PHYSICALLY end their victims life, but once someone is raped, part of who they are is lost forever and the remaining pieces of the shattered sense of self these victims are left with are forever altered to fear the most simple tasks, even walking out the front door.

rapists shouldn’t just get to walk free after serving a sentence in prison for any length of time. if they were fucked up enough in the head to rape someone to begin with, they really ought to be kept in prison until their pulse stops to make sure these deranged men never, EVER get another opportunity to even let their mind process over-taking another victim.

too bad there’s no fast forward button on life. it’d be great to go ahead and skip the next year or so because i have a distinct feeling that it’s going to be my own personal hell. really, i just want to quit. get past it. anything. fuck. life shouldn’t have so many twists and turns in a three month period. that’s just not a long enough span of time to throw literally 18 negative life changes at any single person. ever.

I can only think of one part of my life I’m happy with.

biggest crush/obsession.

days like today just make me feel like not existing.

i want the hard, emotional stuff to go back where it came from and leave me the hell alone. last time i checked i didn’t ask for it to be in my business.

i hate feelings.

green. hours. work. hours again? home. studystudystudy. fml.

i learned lots of interesting things about myself today. i feel like i might have a better handle on my mind in general.

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add me, jordanhornback.

i need the distraction.